Focus

Proverbs 20:4
A sluggard does not plow in season; so at harvest time he looks but finds nothing.

Its a reminder for me to work hard more. To pursue my dream. I will not achieve my goal if I will not persevere inspite of the challenges. There is no easy way or a shortcut to success. I should be taking every steps maybe slowly but surely. There will be distractions along the way, but still I need to focus on my goal.

Lord thank you for redirecting me again. Continue to guide me on reaching my goal. It will not be easy I know, but surely I know you'll sustain me with wisdom and strength. Thank you Lord.

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Choices

All of us has decisions to make everyday. Part of those decisions are choices given to us which depends on the situation. Those choices can lead you to good things or worst things.

Loving someone is also a decision you make everyday. Because today is different from yesterday. The only constant thing is change. Everything changes everyday.

I can still remember the kilig when he first hold my hands. The first "I love you". Even the kilig when I stare at him and I saw him staring at me also. The first hug and even the first kiss which I think I was the  one who make the first move. Hahaha.. But part of being in a relationship are also challenges. I remembered I got jealous and I can't tell him but to my friends only. When I cried and he just hug me. ( oh i miss it when he make the move just to hug me). I felt secured and how I wish the time stops. I still read the letters he gave to me and I still feel the joy it brings to my heart just like the first time I read it.

I missed it when he makes me feel special. Simple things that means a lot to me. As much as possible I just want to understand that he also have his own priorities. As much as possible when I felt unloved, I just reminisce the happy memories we had. I tried not to be demanding because that's me. I really dont demand from people. I dont know what's going on his mind. And that's out of my control.  But as they say,  focus on the things you can control. And that is my emotion or feelings. I tried to tell him how I feel but I felt he thinks I'm over reacting. I felt that he doesn't want to talk about it.  Maybe part of me just want to have his attention. But since I am talking about choices. I can choose to give up but my heart and I always choose to love him more everyday. It brings more happiness to me. I dont want to focus on the negativity and what he cannot give. Does it sounds crazy? I guess not because true love is loving someone without expecting in return. But sometimes I can't help myself to expect and it hurts sometimes. When I felt I was lacking patience and I was in pain, I just pray and thank God because he sustain me more of his love and patience. I just think how God forgives and love us again inspite of the things we've done wrong. And who am I not to forgive. If I was forgiven, then I'll forgive. It doesnt matter who loves more, but what matter is how we can love more and see the goodness in every people.

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From scratch

Finally for the first time I finished making my first dress from scratch. From my own measurement, into the fabric, cutting the fabric and then into the sewing machine ..
Though its not yet perfect as I want it, but its my first step to perfectness. Hehe. I just need more practice. As I was doing it, i learned my mistakes. Practice, practice and practice so I can reach my business goal. That's for now. Lovelots.

Loving Yourself

This days everyone is busy making a living. Facing their own challenges in life, reaching their goals, aiming to be the best. But sometimes on our way to be the best, we forgot to be good. We tend to forget some of the most important thing. Having quality time for the most important people in our life. Maybe because we are so comfortable that they will always be there for us. And we never recognize that we taken for granted having a quality time for them. Having time when we have a free time is different from making a free time out of your busy schedule.
And for those who have given all their time, attention and love just to be loved and recognize as vip in someones life, well its time that you give time for yourself. Sometimes we have to know when is enough is enough. You may still love them but never ever forget yourself. Stand up! Be a woman worth everthing!!..